Before the Brush

862: the world asks to be seen

what if it were true the this is enough practitioners have got it right ambition can still exist so too can drive and motivation and goals and passions we can build and still be enough we can create and still have enough we can manifest and still always enough two...

861: the world asks to be seen

what is it lke to be alive now I take it all as a sign of something the god I used to call to God still there somehow but even if not that too okay it is all this the red bud bursting the dogwood abloom the leaves falling the petals turning it is all this I need...

860: the world asks to be seen

there is a living that arrives after putting down the living I held out for so long  you probably have as well for who is to believe that it can be so we're told to strive to drive to take up the reigns of our lives slap that strap across the back of our will and...

859: the world asks to be seen

all proofs must be returned there is no allotment for keeping even a grain in one's hand beyond the due date is it with age that we can know this for sure or is it a duration of expiration  a clock we  none of us can hear ticking yet all walk the rhythm...

858: the world asks to be seen

john ashbery with only one r the name caught my eye first after the title which had me holding it in my hand when I professed not buying a single thing I still am not sure who he is beyond the author of this tidy collection of essays about his friends ...

857: the world asks to be seen

you can stop doing that now the only life here for you is the one in which you find joy so you can stop doing that now happy isn't joy it's temporary and often too false you can stop doing that now joy is peace  no matter what  can you say to something that...

856: the world asks to be seen

you can gently open your eyes an imperative  one couched in choice  we all need to wake up or there is no one here when the door opened and the dove flew I was surprised by the touch of air on my cheek and the swish of sound there but almost  also ...

855: the world asks to be seen

distraction is not avoidance washing the dishes setting the bed into shape the floors a quick mop stepping out to gaze at the gardens check for any repairs weeds turn brush in hand the way is clear now

854: the world asks to be seen

only as far as my eyes can see most days maybe just enough for my arm to reach the world within the grasp  two hands taking up a bouquet of zinnia a scrabble of paintbrushes from a wash pail a long stroke across the back of a ginger-tinted hound stretched out in...

853: the world asks to be seen

I've caught up to myself and I am not sure I like it the momentum that kept me ahead of the game a step beyond  the daily was a comfort  I didn't worry about what was next or where I was going for I had planned that out before now I stand in the now of it...

852: the world asks to be seen

my heart sighed the gentle settling could have gone unnoticed it wasn't necessary yet there it was necessary the first step into the space and all the weight I didn't know I was carrying melted away in that gentle sigh and the bliss of realizing  just this

851: the world asks to be seen

I smeared the life blood of a moth across my kitchen ceiling just now I didn’t intend to do so  but it refused to move as the broom came closer and swished across its path  All that is left is a small still fluff on the tiled grey floor and a long maroon...

850: the world asks to be seen

Trust what you feel We’re told to not trust feelings  Sure,  but don’t get carried away…. When gazing at a painting  Say in the louvre or your local museum And your heart swells to the capacity of your caged ribs and thumps the spine of your skull...

849: the world asks to be seen

it is all coming back to me now   she lay across the branch  15 feet high hung wide over the driveway like a sloth like a koala like a comfortablely slung bouquet of stems and feathers a nest tucked into the bow protected  unseen the world has hurried...

848: the world asks to be seen

it sits there  all of it the history and the future alongside right now  not enough I want to say held in my hand and there again I wake to a new day one I did not ask for and told those ears I was fine to release and yet  someone  somewhere ...

847: the world asks to be seen

what is your reticence artist you are is this not enough to carry the wave of present  into the future and trust in a something that lends a hand to the coming that is coming without your knowing yet too there in your hand

846: the world asks to be seen

The wonder of a day that simply shows up a cancelled meeting a rescheduled appointment a determined dropping of necessity all of these become a blessed release and a wide open shining into this one day perhaps human  this is the way  

845: the world asks to be seen

all indications from the outside suggested otherwise but I chose to keep trusting and here I stand still

844: the world asks to be seen

the thunder and rain boomed against the thin pane  not sure it would hold I stood back and watched this scrim of protection this line of resistance this divide of space the only required safety from now on

843: the world asks to be seen

take stock of the day watch it listen close the tamber of the rising sun a sound if you let it be full and rich with life hold a moment  in the palm of your hand capture a breath  on the tip of your tongue  enfold this day into the makeup of your...

842: the world asks to be seen

so maybe it too is a part of the rhythm doubt dips in for a stomach-dropping moment before the lift of what faith courage hope determination something like that there is no giving it up life now hos too little time and too short the resource count to hand over the...

841: the world asks to be seen

some days just no no work no play no brain no body  no thinking no feeling no needing no wanting some days it can only be about breathing enough

840: the world asks to be seen

the bin collectors whir and grind down the street the process of centuries unfolding  change doesn't come easily but then also  a system that works works

839: the world asks to be seen

again you know when that thing hits it takes your breath away or causes you to grasp the cotton of your tshirt between your clenched hands at your chest with an earnestness you thought had died upon that bed  that first time  that blood letted anticipation...

838: the world asks to be seen

it's orange it's yellow it's turning to brown my favorite season falls into the hands of the earth resting there  time is my treasure

837: the world asks to be seen

one by one they fall no wonder we call it that rather than autumn

836: the world asks to be seen

we run around the sun 6 year old skinned knees joyfilled golden locks streaming behind the arms held high was there trouble did I see concern were my moments tempered by the thought of fall  a loss  a break never and here I am my knees free of broken skin  the golden...

835: the world asks to be seen

In the world there are those who will ring the phone trilling to their call for your attention you answer though your very depth says to let it go on to the next it takes you advise ideas suggestions opinion you there hold your own the small bird fluttering between...

834: the world asks to be seen

be my summer my sand and my strawberry in May be my home my heart my holding place when the earth shakes the world turns the ground falls away into your arms is the place of my freedom my grace my  Self

833: the world asks to be seen

a poem a day they challenge I take it up on day one like my sword through the trouubled view toward the road ahead each day plink out another line or ten tranversing this road as it weaves and undulates over the terrain of my life this life our life who are we to say...