God can you will you tell me about my anxiety why is it what am I called to do with it what is it meant to teach me Lord God how can I grow more still quiet so that even if my interiors flux through these emotions my exterior does not reflect any of it I believe it is of great value to be able to hold and cradle to health inside any of these emotions so that my exterior does not go out to be influence or affect it is there in this control cradling stopping the spread of that the greatest value and growth and health are available to me there Lord right there have you just again yet again given me the answer to my prayers before I even realized it given the answers as I was asking and praying such a marvel such a miracle the answers are here now I get it and I hold them now I put them into practice that is my part isn’t it to practice I can do that with honor Lord God some people do not believe some people do not want to know what it is to believe I was there I go there still doubt they call it at its best cynicism self loathing or sarcasm at its most deadly Lord God I have found it takes nothing to believe it takes everything though to put it into practice and to let my mouth not open nor my brow crease for to do so closes the gates of the only entryway you have into this world the only entryway belief has into the world through the heart that radiates in the eyes this is the practice and it is the flip side of anxiety so I yes will do the work
as best I can