continuously lamenting the sleep she took too long too fitful too deep too too too in the end I simply listened in the end I thought to myself in the end it arose so what so what so what if that is when you are not sleeping when you are awake you are choosing being seeing breathing hearing tasting touching awake
runon: sleep wake~
I understand this lack of sleep this lamentation I too have fitful nights (most) and sleep for two hours then wake sleep another two hours then wake I can’t remember the last time I had a deep sleep without waking is it age health worry If I lived alone I would just get up make noise vacuum clean listen to music but alas not the case the house is too quiet for me to wander around I turn on a Podcast listen to a soothing voice meditate my days are upside down backwards ah to be a child again and sleep and dream without a care in the world I hear the older I get the more I will sleep all day naps all night until I return to my child-like posture fetal pose until I no longer care