Though I didn’t call it that at the time.

When then, it was frustration, impatience, often times annoyances brought about by shining faces with earth-smell sweet peace in the skin of their cheeks.

Later the ache of wanting-time energy trust truth holding more light enrobing held-that ache how

could I have known? was the very

thing I held so tightly to my chest

already in me when I reflected yes but also when I

simply stepped forward.

All it ever was was a choice.