because duty and to-do fall all over themselves to take center stage

and your mind

my mind 

trips over itself to task-master and

rule my being well and

nothing seems to get finished and

at the end of the day the list surely has multiplied itself and

the breath, my breath, I worked so hard to ease and calm just eight hours ago has fluttered and

faltered and

the world seems to have darkened and closed in and and

and

I remind myself……

sigh…..

I remind myself…..

it is all in my head.