Something happened today though you wouldn’t know it to look at me I am just the same as yesterday save for a few thousand cells gone regenerative this power this source this something that I can only say is what I allowed it what I finally finally finally and will have to again let in overtook me she did not requiring permission though I had to acquiesce but who would not want to this power this she is wild she is creative she is everything me and yet not quite that she is all that she is that in the world and all that of the world and here she’s into me taking my skin into her skin blasting me with the world right here right there right where I am
I envy this you this person of power wild and creative something happened to you and I acknowledge it yet it does not transfer to me unfortunately each person has to find their own way their own path and allow as you say let in I continue to build walls maybe someday…