If the world, what world?! were to see me now, feeling so lost, so without, so nothing, what would the world say? The world-what world?!-my world-what world?!-were to see me now, baking and eating, waking and ignoring paint, ignoring words, casting aside because there is nothing there in what is cast, if the world were to see me now here like this in this place, what world would that be, seeing me?