runon: mark this day

runon: mark this day

December 9 I am finally not frightened anymore there are no more goblins in the night telling me I am not can not will not not even a ghost taunting with if-only-swirls around my head I am free of the fright that bedeviled me in my nights I stopped my running and said...
maybe it’s not writing…

maybe it’s not writing…

but the reading after all; I seem to not be able to get enough and yet when I pick up pen to put to paper what comes often is gibberish nonsensical spilling that ends up in the bin. Perhaps that’s where it was always meant to be  in the end the words that...
runon: fall

runon: fall

Ah when the leaves change when life changes when I gaze out the frosting window into the crisp sky watching yellow orange red brown leaves fall fall fall away outside alongside the words and tellings the voices and stories inside mirror their descent
meditate on this~

meditate on this~

Do you hear them gathering as they’ve done so many times in the past you steal strength to endure them sit more firmly on your mat believing it is all you have left they are here now around fully engulfing so that thought behind thought is no longer even the...
runon: soul sound~

runon: soul sound~

Is there a mouth that does not give out soul sound is there light that does not shine from even one so unseemingly only those most attuned most crushed and pulled apart then put back together then risen then rejoined and realized whole all along can give glimpse...
is this the real rebirth~

is this the real rebirth~

I move like cautious sunlight this morning through my mind gently stepping not making a sound breath captured softly in my soul waiting to exhale. Is this the real rebirth? Can I let go?