81: faith: the need

for courage and desire but which comes first it takes the wind from one’s sails to find desire without courage to hoist mast yet courage without a desire to billow its silks is trying to run through mudded waters i know i have done both and my eyes tell the...

80: inner tree

oh it is so difficult some days to stand firm in what just yesterday was so true there are some who to look at them are stolid and straight never wavering from their courae and I wonder how can I possibly be just like that today an email told me I was admired for the...

79: the rain splatters

against the stretched nylon awning with the plink and sputter one can expect the downspouts trickle-hum the spring rain through the fallen flowery buds and spring sticks stopping up the gutters and as the sun lights the sky without showing its face my poems and...

78: visceral loathing

I can remember it feeling abject disgust for myself I was never of a way that called for such disgust yet there it was sure I made mistakes I did things that left me regret remorse not so much to hate the very self I am there is never enough mis take to go so deeply...

77: saved by poetry

was Mary Oliver’s way how about you what saved your soul refreshing its presence in this world so that you no longer wondered at what life was but went ahead and did this thing every day for days on end what was that for you? it was my child then children then...