interior trust
let what I feel deeply be real
without thinking worldly ways are more real, anymore
the ‘get out there’ motivational platform is not the ‘only’ way to go
being quiet, not leaving a sound, being with oneself in a small space
cannot be ‘waste’
this dance; one step forward two steps back
Art is a vehicle for me
Writing too
although words hold a deeper place than even the brush in hand
that was tender to divulge
they call to me to take them more seriously
I suspect mightily that there is a deeper expression in both words and color that I can let free
but for now I am still in the struggle of what this would require (quiet unworldly exposure)
to what the world seems to require
I would like to think I am moving toward a lifestyle that allows this interior time more safely and securely
without demolishing the world I have created and lived in up to this point
I don’t think it is meant to be so hard;
for me to struggle with the daily questions of right/wrong, income/doing, provision/lack, world/self-soul.
Makes me crazy some days; and others it’s just all alright.
Ah to be a dog lying in the sun’s rays, and this enough….