it is difficult to describe how it feels

or what I sense when I can see that I exist

it is a broad horizon

or maybe a deep expanse

or just a sweet small room

all at once everything

it means nothing to me now

that was yesterday but still yet

at the center of my self

a new stone has been carefully placed

tended into form

this cairn

my soul

I may be ill I am sure of it truth told

but even in this a body decomposing

a silent rumination inside gnawing away at the delicate mitochondria

this too the answer to every question I have asked

this too my existence

proven out across a universe

even as dust returns to dust in its slowly turning cycle