which is not to say I see because
seeing is different than looking
seeing is what we are born with, most of us, and not something that has required any effort on our part
looking is effortful we are called to action to attention when we are called to look
so I started looking at things in ways time, place, position, people, wouldn’t have allowed me to open my eyes to before
but this is after, or at least some point in ‘during’ and I have no more before
it’s become a thing one can only talk about there is no anticipation of return or expectation of regroup
these are gone forever
looking then, as I open my weary eyes and turn my face to the light of this one new day all
that there is I can find that presence is a thing I can look at
time is a substance I can choose to schedule or let flow
and place is a gift that keeps on lending its beauty to my one position here
now.
there you are, still yourself, with your particular way of loving. And there is the world, still full of people to love.