299: trust

I don’t, him not in this determination whatever the opposite of lazy is he says all the right things but there it’s what’s behind all the words isn’t it always sure no one is entirely untrustworthy nor entirely worthy so the scale is tipped...

298: lesson

no lessen the weight shifts at least sideways as if ready to slide off release from constricting my chest I ask so much of myself make as if responsible for and to and I am we are breathing and seeing hearing and speaking beget this essentially the weight I have...

297: it scares me

sometimes all times I can’t seem to let it go this passion and depth felt for life for living for others living for all living I do not have a map to follow this impractical passion formed in the image of I am full of practicality is there a happy place where...

296: loss of Life of love of live of lift

ouch the quickening heart ouch the tight lungs the shortened breath the blood suffused ouch the throat clench ouch the limbs tingle ouch the eyes blur ouch the ears ring ouch the sun growing dim the moon glowing less the stars blinking...

295: angry

I say I am over it I tell myself I am over it above it beyond it what then to do with the pain in the heart the darkness around the edges that seeps in like quicksand around that fateful last step the experts advise not slamming the door but rather taking it out for a...

294: reality

I am happy enough still as I wake nothing taking over there mind left to the haze veiled in that instant between sleep and wake dreamy like a child yet fully formed by the world life I accept this duality I have lived here long enough accept though not the end I...