127:

usefulness is not a thing as we would imagine or maybe we are taught to believe from the beginning so we don’t even realize it was taught not truth

126: doubt; this?

i type (a doing) while she chants a mantra of pausing patience calm breathe the idea (proper) is to listen in complete awareness i type the words float in the chant rolls around the ‘observe’ (imagine) she prescribes works its way through my fingertips...

125:

if i am and i am because i am poised over the milk sugar eggs flour the whisk so real just now my hand holds sun rises lands a ray on the edge of the bowl suggests more to come

124: iron permanence

the permanence of a thing the iron frog on the wood painted shelf of no regard yet holding a space there beside the yellowing daisies

123: i wanted

no more 9 months rain chill delicious break of 90 days fleeting wild blackberry vines never tamed evergreen lushly perpetuate against grey lexington he said is a simply six hour drive boys would be happy to visit have visits sold we packed up little belongings took...

122: i want to but it will be too hot

to sit before computer screen type words into lines into paragraphs into chapters wonder at life in my head as focus shifts eyes clear to the room around me but I must seal gutters water gardens prune roses stake beans weed raspberry beds sweep dead grass from...