127:

usefulness is not a thing as we would imagine or maybe we are taught to believe from the beginning so we don’t even realize it was taught not truth

126: doubt; this?

i type (a doing) while she chants a mantra of pausing patience calm breathe the idea (proper) is to listen in complete awareness i type the words float in the chant rolls around the ‘observe’ (imagine) she prescribes works its way through my fingertips...

125:

if i am and i am because i am poised over the milk sugar eggs flour the whisk so real just now my hand holds sun rises lands a ray on the edge of the bowl suggests more to come

124: iron permanence

the permanence of a thing the iron frog on the wood painted shelf of no regard yet holding a space there beside the yellowing daisies

123: i wanted

no more 9 months rain chill delicious break of 90 days fleeting wild blackberry vines never tamed evergreen lushly perpetuate against grey lexington he said is a simply six hour drive boys would be happy to visit have visits sold we packed up little belongings took...