I’m learning just how beautifully, and blessedly, God is in the little things.
I have believed that God only shows up in the big things; cancer cured, pregnancies realized, funds funded, sins forgiven.
I had this notion that in the little, day to day events, I was on my own. ThatI had to figure out which venue to seek out, how to package and promote the kits, who to ask to teach at my retreat, how to go about encouraging my boys to faith in Christ.
Yet I am coming to see He doesn’t expect this solitary, independent striving of me any more than He expects to me take up a scalpel and perform heart surgery (this is, need I say, not in my bag of talents 🙂
In the past few months I’ve heard sermons and read devotionals and begun to pray to God for my every need, my every presence, my every moment. I am learning that to believe this way is not to burden God, but rather to bless him. It is in needing him that faith is expressed; and this is what God asks of me-to be utterly and relentlessly faithful, nothing more.
The bottom line reality of this is, God himself is establishing me in him; not the reverse~What a relief and an incredibly profound blessing…
So I have to tell you my story: there’s more to it-the ‘before I even left’ decisions that play into this whole picture as well-but for the sake of wearying your eyes reading :), I’ll start with the actual trip that began last Thursday-
I left Seattle in the midst of the snow storm-ending up being just one of two flights to get out after my initial flight was cancelled. I flew through Chicago instead of Denver and the connecting flight waited for me (and four others) for almost a 1/2 hour so we could get on. Then, arriving in Orlando 6 hours later than originally planned, I was told the Enterprise counter would be closed, but to go to Alamo to get my rental. As my weary legs carried me through the rental car que, sans my supply cases that managed to stay behind in Seattle (yes, this too was a grace of God because he knew I would be too weary to drag them through the airport, so why not have SW airlines deliver them to my hotel room the next day- just in time for my Saturday workshop to begin?!), I saw a lone body behind the Enterprise counter and asked, ‘are you really here?!’ (yes, I was a bit delusional at this point 🙂 after a giggle, she helped me through my rental, knocking $140 off the cost of my measly economy rental just because she could (and because I cringed at the $370 price tag she quoted).
Out at the booth to get my car, the employees were joking and looking forward to going home; I quipped ‘let’s get this chick her car and get out of here already!’ they laughed, then proceeded to give me the car of my choice..for my economy price. Being told the BMW was finicky to drive :),I opted for the Infinity and am now driving a luxury sedan in Orlando for 11 days!
( I am still having trouble embracing this gift; silly me!)
Then! my Orlando workshop was at 5 when I flew; I arrived to find it up to 7-my Mt Dora was at a measly 7, and has now climbed to 15 with three more emails contacting me with interest.
Why, you ask, do I outline the events this way? Why do I feel so strongly that I need to share this with some bodies?!
I prayed; no, it seems too ‘proper’ to state it that way: I talked to God as I awaited the verdict of my delayed, then cancelled flight that morning.
I walked with God.
I simply said ‘help me God’ (over and over and over between the mixed thoughts and emotions rolling in my brain) and walked and listened.
I spent the better part of my entire time at Seatac (arrived at 4:45am, departed at 2:30) walking and praying that simplest of prayers; ‘Help me God.’ There was no other way.
Alas, there is never any other way….
And, at the risk of not giving all these ‘little things’ proper credence, I know they all came to be because of the fact that I set my heart and mind to DO IT!-I’d been vacillating between getting myself back home and cancelling entirely as I was milling among the throngs of complaintive and concerned fellow travelers that swarmed the ticket counters-after all I had ‘barely enough’ students to make it worth (my) while, and it was a terrible time to risk travel….
Something came over me though; a sudden assurance and sense of determination; I would do it, even if I had to sleep in the airport overnight.
I was committed and I would be steadfast. It is in this determination that I trusted unwaveringly in God’s hand in it and his promise of everything working for good. I truly felt that even if I were to go down in an ice covered airplane, God’s great good would be working; not the worldly assessment that it was pure, foolish folly to choose to fly in a storm.
If something can truly turn on a dime, this is the dime; that certain, consuming sense of determination. I have felt it just a few times over the past few years, but the more I do, the more confident I become and the more faith I embrace.
And, the more closely and assuredly I walk with God in each and every decision, moment and move.
He comes through.
In spades 🙂
So gloriously worthwhile and blessed; in just this-the small things. It’s that good 🙂
And oh! It’s 80 degrees and sunny~
with a bursting heart,
‘Do you live expectantly? Do the little things excite you? Do you imagine the improbable and expect the impossible? Life is full and running over with opportunities to see God’s hand in little things. Only the most sensitive of His servants see them, smile, and live on tiptoe. Chuck Swindoll